Lately (well for the last couple months) I have been experiencing feelings of not being good enough, smart enough, pretty enough, talented enough, motherly enough, etc- lots of feelings of inadequacy. Nothing life threatening or even Prozac-worthy, but just little thoughts every now and then.
I began to realize that these feelings and thoughts start to surface some times when I look on Facebook, Instagram, and Pinterest, or read certain blogs.
Yesterday I was talking to my sister about this. She said that during the Christmas season she didn't once look on Pinterest. She said she didn't want to fall into the "Pinterest Peer-pressure" of feeling like she had to do Elf on the Shelf, and a Christmas craft-a-day, and A Christ-centered Christmas activity, and homemade ornaments, and fancy Christmas cards, etc in order to feel like she was worth something.
Our conversation made me think about a talk I heard from the girls of Our Best Bites at a Time Out for Women. The said something along the lines of:
Isn't it interesting to hear how social media can make people feel inspired and inadequate at the same time? Then they gave some example of social media and what they're really about.
Facebook - where not only can you go to read blogs to find ideas, but you can keep track chronologically of everything your friends are doing that you're not.
Twitter - A constant chirping in your ear reminding you of everything you’re not doing.
Pinterest – also known as www. wow I didn't know I was so below average at everything .com! It’s literally a way to collect and organize all the things you don’t have time, talent, or resources to accomplish, and then display them in a visually appealing way so that you can share them with others so that they can feel under average as well.
President Ezra Taft Benson (1899–1994) taught, “As the showdown between good and evil approaches with its accompanying trials and tribulations, Satan is increasingly striving to overcome the Saints with despair, discouragement, despondency, and depression.” The adversary knows that if he can prevent us from recognizing our divine potential, he will have scored a major victory.
It is my opinion that one of the vices Satan is using to "overcome the Saints (especially the women) with despair, discouragement, etc" is social media. If he can get us to feel inadequate because our house isn't as nice as so and so's, or we don't do crafts everyday with our kids, or our kids aren't dressed to the nines in name brand clothes, or we don't prepare gourmet meals for our family every night, then he is winning! HE IS WINNING!
At the beginning of the year as I was thinking about what goals I wanted to set and work on for myself, one of the things that came to mind was to stop looking at social media (Facebook, Instagram, and Pinterest for me); and to only read blogs that inspire me to be better, and to stop reading blogs that make me feel like I'm a failure. If any of you have tried this, it is hard. Social Media has become an addiction of sorts. Many of us (me included) have turned into Compulsive Checkers.
I recently read an article by Jordan K. Turgeon. As I read this part, I thought, "This is so me". Here's what she says,
"I'd be sitting on the couch on the weekend, snuggled under a blanket, enjoying some downtime while scrolling through my various social media feeds, only to be assailed by a heap of obnoxious inner dialogue: